What the HeLL

so emily randomly left today with her sister. i only found out because i went over there at like 10 pm and BONNIE effin told me. getting news from bonnie is not my choice source of info. im over at abby's right now and im sitting in a chair. emily is crasy. she takes things toooooo srsly. honestly i don't know what's going to happen with jonathan after our lengthy facebook to and fro messaging session the other nite. obviously he wants to see katie's tits while technically he's never even seen mine, and im supposed to be helping him do this in exchange for a source of alcohol. its fucked up how this is just another thing to add to the list of stuff he does that should offend me but doens't. oh well. so abby is just standing up in front of the tv. WHY?? idk. one of life's mysteries. i am prettttty stoned still right now. i feel bad b/c now i'm out of bitch mode and i see now how everyone was like starting to hate me. i feel bad but they are just like yeah.... you're a cunt. i want to go back i feel horrid!!! i guess i should probably just stop being a bitch. i feel like such a japanese citizen being awesome cuz i have on crazy orange jacket and blue flip flops and squinty high eyes and im typing a bubble gum pink blog on my laptop out and about in my life. so yeah. life's daily bread. hahahaha. i think i am god and jesus and the holy ghost. why not not not . i want to cut and paste what jonathan said in here about god and life because it was bitter and poignant like i like it:

You have to consider the possibility that God DOES NOT LIKE YOU. He never wanted you. In all probability, he hates you. This is not the worst thing that can happen. Look around this "creation." You really think this is the best a god could do? Use your head. All you will hear in Theology is the ideas of MEN, committees of stuffy old men arguing with one another about the nature of this concept they all call by the title (not name) of "god."

You are a douchebag human being with a monkey's pee brain, with 99% of your DNA the same as a squealing chimp. 99% of all species have died out. The human body doesn't even function well...the organs were adapted to walking on all fours, and today we have back problems because of it. This is not the design of a benign creator. There IS NO CREATION. You don't need an eternal fucked up punk brat tyrant to worship. Existence has always been. How could it have been otherwise? There is no primal cause. Study cosmology or nuclear physics or genetics instead. Far more fascinating and miraculous than any of god's magic tricks. 
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so yes very just you know. i liked it. because, like sylvia plath i like the boot in the face and the brute brute heart of a brute like him yes yes yes yes. i love sylvia plath. anyway. abby is taking a shower and when she's done i am brushing her hair i am excited because ..... i want to brush hair!!!